hi everyone. how are you doing? i want to fucking die. this has been a really, REALLY long year. although i can barely remember what the first half of the year was like.

anyways, as a recap, of what happened, i went to go see my girlfriend in august, everything went well afterwards.but! in late october, one of my cats got really, really sick. she stopped eating, got extremely lethargic. we took her to the vet, and after many exams and a lot of money spent, we found out she had a stone in her left urether. and the thing that would actually make her get better (according to the nephrologist) was to get surgery. well, the surgery costed around R$5000 (around 1 thousand USD)

unfortunately, we didn't immediately agree to the surgery, because of it's INSANE cost (it's worth one month of my mother's salary) but she kept getting worse and worse day after day. i spent my birthday morning with her at the vet. we took her to a different vet once again for her to be hospitalized, and this time, we agreed to the surgery. we have spent around R$10,000 up to this point. and it doesn't seem like she's getting any better. she got extremely, extremely weak after the surgery. it does feels and seems like she will pass away soon. the doctors requested for a blood transfusion, but regardless if she's better of not, she will be coming home on the 11th.

she completed 10 years on november 28th. she is the daughter of one of my cats. i missed her birth because at the time i went to sleep, and when i woke up, she was born. my mom always thought she was ugly, but i always thought she was the cutest. she loves staying by my side. when i go lie down on the floor, she used to come running to lay down next to me, no matter where she was. she would also go running to bathroom if you were inside, and beg for you to pet her butt. she had another name, kim kilwhan (named after one of jake the dog's children), but i ended up calling her peepy because that's what her meows sounded like. she was so talkative. everytime i would meow at her, she would meow back.

i love her dearly along all my other cats. somehow, i could be taking this so much worse. i just think i am extremely emotionally stunted that i don't know how to react. we spent so much money, put so much effort in trying to get her to get better but it has just been getting worse and worse. we've lost our hope. i don't think there's anything we can do.

the worst aspects of all of this conundrum is losing money. it's a losing game. i hate asking people for money, i was raised to never ask for it, but unfortunately i really have to this time.

i need money to pay mine and all the other expenses. my bank doesn't allow screenshots for security reasons, but here's the gist: i had to take a loan of r$2000 (~$400 usd) and i'll be paying it monthly until march. but unfortunately my credit card debt is around r$400, and i have a planned trip to see my girlfriend, which i would like to have some money for since we will probably need a hotel to stay + money for emergencies. i currently have r$800, but i need around r$1300 (~$260 usd) to cover these expenses.

currently, my mother has been paying for a lot of it, and so am i, but our credit score is not looking so good after all that money spent. so, to help ourselves, im opening commissions.

there will be 7 spots for commissions in this vectorized style, each for $40 usd. (payment after sketch ONLY, through paypal. so i wont slack off!) style can very from simple to complex, i'm sure i can adapt any character to this style, but i have the right to refuse any requests. dm me on tumblr or through email for any other inquiries.

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